My Eating Disorder Recovery Anniversary!!!

My Eating Disorder Recovery Anniversary!!!

Hey there Peaches!

If you have been reading this blog for a while you know that I struggled with anorexia and then bulimia for 17 years. I am so bad about blogging about it even though I really want to! I am going to though, I promise. I always knew that one day when I was past it I would tell my story so that someone else may not struggle as long. But for me, it’s so much easier to write about my current state instead of my past because my current state is fresh in my mind. And it’s crazy that even though it was a 17 year struggle,Β it isn’t fresh in my mind! In fact, it doesn’t even feel like it was me at all.

Anyway, I always wanted an anniversary date. I would get so fed up some days and tell myself that I was done. I had finally had enough and tomorrow was going to be my fresh new healthy start, and I would turn from my disordered ways and never look back. I was going to remember that day that I never looked back and celebrate it every year. There were so manyΒ of those “new beginnings”. Then some days I felt like I would never have an anniversary because I would never be able to let go.

Well here I am, healed.

I have no idea what day this happened because it didn’t happen how I wanted it to. It wasn’t that I woke up one day, started fresh and clean and never looked back. It was failure after failure and failure after failure (this could go on…), lesson after lesson after lesson, YEARS of praying, and never giving up hope that one day I could not center my world around food and my body. I really don’t know when it ended for good. I just know that it was really bad for 17 years. But it did, in fact, end for good. If you are reading this right now and going through the struggle, know that it is very possible to be 100% better no matter how long it’s been..

I have no clue what my anniversary day is…….. but I still want one!

So I am going to open my calendar and whatever month I open to, I will close my eyes and point to a day. I’m going to do this right now……

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MAY 15!!!

My eating disorder recovery anniversary is May 15, still don’t know the year. But I’m gonna celebrate! πŸ™‚

Question:

Do you have a unique important date that you celebrate each year?

52 thoughts on “My Eating Disorder Recovery Anniversary!!!

  1. You’ve come a long way and from such a horrid disease…you deserve a date and a celebration ! This, my dear peach, shows exactly how much strength you have !!!!!!!! You are a WINNER !
    Over the years, you have made healthy and althetic changes to your body. You know exactly how to feed, fuel, build, maintain, remain healthy and to sport a great looking body πŸ‘πŸ»πŸ˜€πŸ‘πŸ»πŸ˜€πŸ‘πŸ‘πŸ‘
    Congrats Angela…

  2. I think it’s a great idea for you to celebrate. You have come so far and are such an inspiration. I look forward to hear how you will decide to celebrate your anniversary.

  3. Don’t see it as “failure”. You just wasn’t ready and had all those lessons to learn to make you stronger so that you could beat it. I had an ED for nearly 30 years so it can be done, just takes a little longer when you’ve had it for a long period of time because the behaviours are more embedded. Have a fab anniversary 😊

    1. Well it definitely felt like failure at the time lol. But you are right, everything in it’s time!
      Wow! You are amazing!!! And yes, when it’s been so long it feel like you have to learn a whole new way of living. And you actually DO. So awesome that you finally beat it. Thank you!

  4. My ED recovery anniversary is December 6th, and this year I will be celebrating 10 years of total healing! I still battle with fear and anxiety, which I am working through right now and blogging about, but I am so thankful that I am not still battling my eating disorder. Thanks for sharing your story of hope!

    1. Oh my goodness, that is amazing Talasi!!! Happy 10th anniversary last month! Thank YOU for sharing. We have to share our stories for the ones that think they are all alone and that they will never be able to break free. Sometimes just knowing that full recovery is possible is enough to keep them from giving up.
      Thank you again Talasi xoxo

      1. Thank you! I didn’t quite get the follow notification, but that’s probably because I’m still web-clueless Hahahaha I decided to get my own domain and put all my thoughts I have on paper on my own little site, but I don’t think I’m all that good at it as yet, could be the reason I get all these calls from India begging me to please “fix my site”πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚

        More importantly! I checked out your blog! I love it! And am following it now. After having unleashed the chains of addiction, my next personal goal is eating right and I find yours amazing and just the inspirational I need 😬

      2. After I read this comment I went back and looked and I actually signed up for your newsletter. But hey that’s good too! Lol! I still do not see the place to follow yourblog but in my message section there is a little icon to follow the blogger who comments on your blog so I followed you that way this morning. So NOW I am following your blog haha. It’s really amazing! I can’t wait to read more because you share really deep things that I don’t think people think about when they imagine the journey.
        Thank you for the kind words and for following!

  5. I am also recovering from an eating disorder too. I did not choose to have an eating disorder, but I choose every day not to surrender to my lifelong illness. I’m proud of my struggle, though seemingly trivial and undisclosed by our society, and it’s time for the world to know: We are brave.We are survivors. πŸ™‚

  6. I have been 100% recovered from my anorexia now for 11 years. For me it started at a very young age most people don’t believe me when I say, how old I was. It was a struggle but you can over come it. I does take time, and patience with yourself. I literally only ate vegetables when I first started out getting back on track. It was a start that in the long run got me to where I am and I wont ever forget who helped me through it either. I love my family for it and my Boyfriend because he has helped keep me on track even now. There will always be days though that you feel like you need to loose weight and that you are fat. That is something that I struggle with doesn’t mean you will. I just want to write and say that there is always a way as long as you really put your mind to it.
    100% recovered since 2007.
    -C @coutnrygirlhuntress

    1. Amazing. I believe you! I used to watch these Youtube videos from a recovered bulimic Shaye Boddington. She is incredible. But she said her bulimia started when she was like 9 or 10 years old. I can’t remember the exact age. So glad you made it to the other side and thank you for sharing!

    1. Thank yo for reading! I definitely don’t think everyone need to celebrate an “anniversary”. You have two great accomplishments under your belt to be proud of! That’s amazing whether you celebrate it on a certain day or not. I just like anniversaries lol.

  7. God bless you and congratulations on your recovery! I’m on the other end of the ED spectrum – Binge Eating – and I’m hoping to have an anniversary date myself someday. πŸ™‚ I wish you the best in your continued good health!

    1. Thank you so much Julee! You will, I will pray for you girl. Just don’t stop trying no matter how many times you fall off the wagon. Best wishes friend. xoxox

  8. I love this idea of celebrating you’re recovery! I’m still in my recovery phase but I started two years ago, I had to leave college and start intensive treatment. So now the last two years on that date I celebrate how much healthier I am now!!

    1. That’s amazing! Yes, that’s the way it goes. There isn’t one day where we are just magically better so we have to choose our own anniversary date! So good to hear from you! Prayers your way girl!

  9. Hey! I found your blog as I am in fact currently awaiting referral to an eating disorder clinic just having finished my a levels while my friends are off interrailing (I had to drop out last min thanks to this horrible condition yayyy…) If you could check out my two posts so far and give me any tips on blogging that would mean the world, thank you so much πŸ™‚ x

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