I try to get your attention in my titles haha.
So I have been thinking about makeup lately. I like to wear it. I like it because it brightens up my face. I am light featured so I have barely any eyebrows or eyelashes. Mascara and brow definer (among many other things) basically make the face that all of you see on here most of the time. So last week, I was going to do a video on how I came up with all the things that I have on my vision board that I look at and pray about everyday. So I put my make up on and started the video and couldn’t get through it! I started feeling really terrible about the makeup! I tried to do the video probably 15 times and just couldn’t do it. So I just gave up for the day.
The next morning I wanted to do the video again. I still felt really weird about the makeup. So weird! So I said ok, maybe God just wants me to do the video with no makeup. I was so filled with fear! I didn’t even really know what to talk about. So I sat down and just opened the Bible to Psalm 31 and read it and then ended the video. Now even though I was super uncomfortable, I am fine with the video because of this verse…
So will My word be which goes out from my mouth; it shall not return to Me empty, without accomplishing what I desire, and without succeeding in the matter for which I sent it.
But man! What a lesson! I had no idea that so much of my identity was tied into my makeup!
After that I had no clue what to do. Do I need to stop wearing makeup all together? Really? I guess I can do that. What does that mean? Oh my gosh!
So after so prayer and contemplation, here is what I think all this is about. I set out to love others because of this verse….
And now these three remain: faith, hope, and love; but the greatest of these is love.
– 1 Corithians 13:13
Well you can’t love very deeply if you are wearing masks! I try to be genuine on here with you all but there are still things that I keep hidden because I think by hiding them you will think more highly of me. I still eat way too much sometimes, I take about 90 selfies until I get the perfect one, and I definitely was not at all comfortable yesterday sharing about my struggles with postpartum depression because I love being a Beachbody coach and blogging about living a healthy lifestyle. The last thing I want is for you to think I am mentally unstable and unable to help and encourage you in your journey. That’s what I love to do!
It was MUCH easier to share my past struggles with you guys a few weeks back. If you missed them, here they are…
It’s much easier to talk about things that are in the past that you have healed and moved on from. But the things going on currently are a different story completely. Definitely harder to share because we don’t want others to know our faults. We have a fear that we will be judged and therefore unaccepted.
BUT I do have a deep desire to give you much love and encouragement! So I must be willing to be exposed. So here’s my face! Haha!
So I don’t think makeup is bad to wear but we have to be ok with letting people see what’s under it. And if we truly have a desire to help others, we have to be willing to be put in a vulnerable spot.
Have a happy Saturday everyone!
Do you ever struggle with vulnerability?