So I have not said this yet but I quit Beachbody coaching. Before I go into why I decided to no longer coach, I just want to make it clear that it has absolutely nothing to do with Beachbody as a company. I still love programs and the friendships that were made in my year as a coach were nothing but lovely. I chose to no longer coach after months of mental anguish and then a conversation with my mom that sealed the deal.
I have been very open about the whole reason that I became a coach last year. It was because I thought that it was set into my hands from the Lord as the answer to my Proverbs 31 prayer. Since I have a passion for the fit lifestyle and have recovered from 17 years of eating disorders, I figured this had to be for me! I became a coach in July 2016 but didn’t do anything with it until the beginning of April 2017. Shortly after beginning to really work the business, I was BOMBARDED with extreme anxiety. I can’t express the magnitude of this to you. It utterly debilitating. Despite the mental anguish, I tried to hang on and keep coaching. I got up early each morning, read my Bible and had my prayer time, got my workout in, and then did the best I could with coaching all the while fighting the mental battle I had going on inside mind. I was constantly trying to sort my thoughts, wondering why I couldn’t make sense of anything, my house was a wreck, Ryan was on his tablet most of the day, and when Jason would talk to me, my eyes would be looking at him but I wasn’t hearing anything he was saying. As crazy as it seems, I didn’t realize this was going on. I knew coaching had to be right so I wasn’t going to give up. There were even times where I thought maybe even though I thought my heart was in the right place with coaching, maybe it wasn’t! Maybe I was really just in it for myself? These little “revelations” would make me feel better for a short time but then the mental anguish would return shortly after. I couldn’t seem to get it together and I didn’t now what I was supposed to do. Coaching had to be right, so it had to be something else.
I was at my mom’s a few weeks ago and we were discussing everything that had been going on. She brought attention to 2 Corinthians 11:14,
And no wonder, for Satan disguises himself as an angel of light.
Ok so this is what I am NOT saying, I am NOT saying that Beachbody or Beachbody coaching is bad. But this household was not at all benefiting from me being a coach. And that was the whole reason that I became a coach in the first place! You all know that I love Proverbs 31 and I am so thankful to God for giving us the purpose that He has! We get to be such a blessing to our households!
She looks well to the ways of her household, and does not eat the bread of idleness. Proverbs 31:27
Wives, submit to your own husbands, as to the Lord. Ephesians 5:22
Her husband has full confidence in her and lacks nothing of value.
She brings him good, not harm, all the days of her life. Proverbs 31:11-12
She gets up while it is still night and provides food for her household and portions for her female servants. Proverbs 31:15
She opens her arms to the poor and extends her hands to the needy. Proverbs 31:20
She speaks with wisdom, and faithful instruction is on her tongue. Proverbs 31:26
Charm is deceptive and beauty is fleeting but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised. Proverbs 31:30
Mom made me see that I was hanging onto this one thing because I thought I was supposed to, but literally everything else in my life was chaos! So FOR ME, it became apparent that Beachbody coaching was not something that I should be doing at this time.
So Peaches, it’s back to just random fitness blogging for me. I know for you readers, this blog has been very confusing this past year. I have to say thank you so much for your readership and for bearing with me. And oh my gosh, thank you to all of you who have followed this blog recently! I can’t believe that this blog has continued to grow even despite the craziness. I have learned so much this past year. One important lesson is that being “just a wife and mom” is the most important job that we have! It’s an enormous responsibility that requires a ton of attention. And thank God we get to do this. What a wonderful calling it is.
Thank you so much again for reading my sweet friends.
Blessings to you all,