A Tale Of Two Lives

A Tale Of Two Lives

Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, the new creation has come: The old has gone, the new is here!  2 Corinthians 5:17

What I have come to realize in my thirty-five years on this earth is that this proverbial “normal” that we all think everyone else is, does not exist. If you are messed up, congratulations, you are normal. Everyone one has problems, everyone has things they have to work through. Everyone.

BUT

If we are in Christ, we really are a new creation. We will still have troubles, we will still sin, but our heart will be different. Christians, is this true for you?

Before I was a new creation, I thought I was. I believed that Jesus Christ died on the cross for my sins so according to my pastor at the time, that made me a new creation in Christ. There was just one not-so-small problem. I was exactly the same as I was before. For those of you who are new to the blog, my “before” was filled with vulgarity, dishonesty, addiction, and a pathetic longing for approval that I was willing to get at any cost. I was this way before I was a Christian…and after.

Why? Because though I believed in God and believed that Christ died for my sins, I did not know the depth of my sin and just how much Christ had saved me from. I never really read the Bible but I listened to sermons telling me how to live my best life, I read Bible verses encouraging my endeavors and made sure to have a quiet time with a feel-good devotional and a prayer asking God to bless me. Other than that, I was perfectly fine with dressing and talking provocatively, “accidentally” drinking until drunk, and gossiping was my absolute favorite pastime. Seriously! The new creation in Christ must just be that once we believe we don’t go to hell because of how terrible we are.

NO! That’s not it! AND YOU NEED TO UNDERSTAND THIS!!!

But the seed on good soil stands for those with a noble and good heart, who hear the word, retain it, and by persevering produce a crop.  Luke 8:15

I had postpartum depression and anxiety after both of my pregnancies but the worst was after my second. I was overwhelmed with the constant thoughts that something awful happening to my son. No matter what I did, the thoughts came back. Night and day I worried. I felt like I was walking around in a constant nightmare. I was always scared, I was always sad. I cannot stress to you the constant terror that I felt. But this was good.

It was good for me to be afflicted so that I might learn your decrees.  Psalm 119:71

It was only when I was hit with the worry of something happening to my son that I finally opened to the Bible to see what God had to say about my plight. I decided to start in Genesis and read until I felt better.

I did not feel better. Not at all. I felt much, much worse.

As I read through the Old Testament, my eyes were opened to just how much God hates sin. The things that I brushed off daily because “everyone does it” were absolutely disgusting in the eyes of God. As a professing Christian, my heart loved the world. And as a professing Christian, my heart was repulsive in the eyes of God. If the terrible feelings I was having were God telling me that I was about to be punished severely, I certainly deserved it.

I know your deeds, that you are neither cold nor hot. I wish you were either one or the other! So, because you are lukewarm–neither hot nor cold–I am about to spit you out of my mouth.  Revelation 3:16

My eyes were now open to the fact that the punishment for sin really is death. Christians, have you ever stopped to think about that? What we actually deserve. I grew up in the 90’s and early 2000’s. “I deserve it!” was practically our anthem! But no, what we deserve is something really awful. Awful, just like our hears.

The heart is deceitful above all things and beyond cure. Who can understand it?
Jeremiah 17:9

Needless to say, I had never been more thankful for the words of the New Testament. For Jesus! When I finally got to the New Testament, I loved every single thing I read about the Lord. He is God. The one who hates my sin. He came to earth, He lived a life without sin, and then took the punishment that I am now fully aware that I deserve.

THANK YOU LORD.

I will never forget reading about the woman who washed Jesus’s feet with perfume. My attention was caught when I read that she lived a sinful life.

A woman in that town who lived a sinful life learned that Jesus was eating at the Pharisee’s house, so she came there with an alabaster jar of perfume.  Luke 7:37

That was me! I had lived a sinful life. A very sinful life. More sinful than I even knew! And I knew a good bit.

But then came the end of the chapter…

Then Jesus said to her, “Your sins are forgiven.”
The other guests began to say among themselves, “Who is this who even forgives sins?”
Jesus said to the woman, Your faith has saved you; go in peace.”
Luke 7:48-50

Your sins are forgiven! Go in PEACE!

I cried. After a life of spitting in His face, He did not repay me with what I deserve. He blessed me. Who loves like this? No one, but our Lord.

Thank you, Lord Jesus, the Lamb of God, who takes away the sin of the world.

I tell you all of this because I know there are many out there like I was, saying you are a Christian but living like the world. You have to know that when we are a new creation in Christ, we really are different. You don’t even have to try, you just change. Of course, I still sin but I am changed. The desires of my heart are nothing at all like they were and I’m telling you that is a miracle. I am so thankful for what Christ has done and I want to live my life in a way pleasing to him because of how thankful I am. He truly saved my life!

Be honest with yourself today. Are you sure you are a new creation now that you are in Christ? If you are, the desires of your heart will agree.

Blessings,
Angela

Question:
Has this happened to you? Please please share!!!