Dog Drama, Anxiety City, Still Pluggin Along. How Are You All Doing?

Dog Drama, Anxiety City, Still Pluggin Along. How Are You All Doing?

Well happy Saturday night ladies!

Dog Drama

I am so sorry I haven’t been able to post this week! I told you I would fill you in on the dog drama that happened this week. Ugh.

So we have been wanting to get a second dog for a while. We are definitely dog lovers and we most of all wanted a pal for Cody.

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Cody is our 135 lb Labrador/St. Bernard mix whom we dearly love. He has been an indoor dog for all of his 5 years but we have pergo floors which I didn’t realize are bad for dogs hips! So we installed a fence in our back yard so that he isn’t always on these floors. He isn’t used to being outside that often so that’s why we thought he might like a pal. Jason and I thought it would be good to adopt a dog from the shelter this time instead of getting a puppy. So I loaded up the kids and went went and checked out the pups at the local shelter. We found one that just had the sweetest face.

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They let the dog come outside with the kids and I and all went well! I wasn’t at all concerned about how Cody would act toward the new dog because he is the absolute friendliest dog there is. I still wanted them to meet before we made our final decision so the next day I brought Cody up to see how they acted together. Perfectly fine! So we payed to have her spayed and get her shots and picked her up last Monday. We were so excited to have a new dog! Ryan named her Katie.

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The first night went fine. She was still groggy from the surgery so she pretty much just laid around and wanted to be petted every now and then. The second day all seemed to be going well. She was great with the kids and was super sweet and cuddly with me. She didn’t seem to interested in Cody but I knew they probably needed to warm up to each other. But as the day went on she started snapping at Cody. The first time he was just sniffing her face. Then when they were eating she wouldn’t let him eat his food. Then he was just laying on the ground and she walked over and snapped at him for seemingly no reason! Then there came a point where she kept coming at him and snapping and growling at him over and over. She wouldn’t let up. Cody is friendly and didn’t really know how to react to her. But it broke my heart to see her biting at his ears and face like she was and I definitely didn’t want to find out what would happened if the kids got in the way of her letting Cody know that she was taking over the place.

I put her outside in the fence and was going to keep her out there for the rest of the night. But at 10:30pm there she was at my backdoor! She had dug out of the fence! I was so scared. And of course everything happens when Jason is out of town. I brought her back in, called animal control and they took her back to the shelter. 😦

Ugh, I probably gave in too soon and should have stuck it out a little longer but I can’t have the kids around dog fights like that.

So that’s what happened.

So Anxious!!!

So I am so anxious you guys! As you know, I have had a really hard time with postpartum anxiety this past year. A few weeks back, Ryan had a health scare and I absolutely broke down in the pediatricians office. Thank the Lord everything turned out ok with Ryan but his doctor told me that I really needed to get help with my postpartum anxiety lol.

“Really? I had no idea.” Haha!

Just kidding. She was extremely kind to reach out to me. She suggested I try supplementing with two amino acids since I still don’t want to try medication. The supplements were L-Tyrosine and 5-5TP.

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When I first started taking these, I felt amazing! I couldn’t believe they were working so well so fast! But what I didn’t realize was that L-tyrosine makes you jittery. I’m not sure why this is but I didn’t know and continued to drink the same amount of coffee that I always do. Since my anxiety is at it’s worst around my ovulation time, I decided to take the L-tyrosine two times a day around this time. The back of the bottle said to take it 1-3 times a day so I thought nothing of it. After the first few days, I noticed I was having a hard time falling asleep. A few days after that, I was watching Beauty and the Beast with the kids and had THE WORST anxiety attack of my life! Once again, everything happens when Jason is out of town!

So I stopped the amino acids and switched to decaf but now I feel like I am just stuck in anxiety mode. 😦

Speaking of this kind of thing, since I am no longer on Facebook and my reader base has now dropped to maybe seven, can we talk about PMS a minute? Does anyone else feel like they are dying during it? I do. It’s been this way for a long time now. I don’t get moody, I feel like I am dying. The fatigue is unreal! It’s the kind of fatigue you feel when you have the flu. Like life is just to much effort. 😦

Anyone?

It’s ok if it’s just me but I have been wondering this forever.

The Zipping

Still the same weight. I have been staying on track with my food but I can’t get mad because I waited until two weeks before the wedding to put forth any real discipline. Plus I swear my stress is making everything worse. So this should be interesting. My plan is just to continue on doing what I am doing so that I can squeeze in the best I can and then bring a dress to change into after the wedding. Rhonda called on Monday and her dress doesn’t fit either, and she’s the bride! Am I terrible for being thankful? Haha, at least I’m not alone!

So as usual my food is  weird and the same day in and day out. Although the other day (the one I told you about that I felt like death), I melted some cheese in a bowl and ate it. Haha! Is there a better cheat?!

But here is how things usually have been…

Breakfast: oatmeal with Vega essentials and almond milk
Lunch: Tofu, oatmeal with 1/2c applesauce, 1/4c dry roasted peanuts
Dinner: Same as lunch (I know! So weird! Why am I such a weird eater?!)
Multi-green kombucha (this has totally grown on me!)

Oh! I did try new flavors! The Passionberry is amazing but I did not like the Cayennade at all. Unless you like really spicy things, approach with caution. My mouth was on fire for an hour.

I haven’t been doing any formal exercising. Anna is now at the age where doing a video is impossible if she is not asleep and now that she is down to one nap that time is in the afternoon. And the thing with afternoons is, I don’t workout during them. So I have to figure something else out in this area. As of now I just do random squats and lunges around the house while cleaning.

I hope you are all doing well! I still have to read your comment Mary but I skimmed over it and it looked like you were having fun as usual. 🙂 Are you back from vacation Anne? How’s it going Christine?

No matter how this challenge turns out, I know exactly what I will be blogging about after this wedding………anxiety management. I have been reading up on how to manage it without medication. I will blog about it soon! Until then, any suggestions?

Questions:

Have you ever had a pet that hasn’t worked out?

Do you struggle with anxiety? How do you manage it?

Do you have extreme fatigue during PMS or menopause? 

How have you been doing with your eating and exercise?

Love you ladies!

 

 

 

 

Lean, Mean, and Squeaky Clean Challenge – May 10th, 2017

Lean, Mean, and Squeaky Clean Challenge – May 10th, 2017

Good evening my fair madens!

Lean, Mean, and Squeaky Clean Challenge!

I can’t believe I didn’t share with you my latest baking fail last night!

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Cookies, not meat.

Well…….what had happened was….

We started out making slime.

But then I shared it on Facebook and was quickly notified that I was likely burning my child’s skin….

So we cleaned everything up and decided to bake sugar cookies instead. The only thing is, I don’t have any sugar in the house and I can’t bake! Like, at all!

So instead of white sugar I used organic light brown sugar which I use for Jason’s oatmeal. Then I made sure to check the recipe backward and forward because the only powdery ingredients it called for were baking powder and baking soda. Aren’t cookies supposed to have flour or something???

Anyway, that’s what led to the amazing piece of work you see above……

Onto today’s food and workout.

My food was almost the same as yesterday, I just had oatmeal instead of quinoa for breakfast and lunch. My workout was yet another humbling session of Extreme Pilates.

Questions:

What was your worst cooking fail?

What did you eat today?

Exercise?

Until next time!

 

 

My Eating Disorder Recovery Anniversary!!!

My Eating Disorder Recovery Anniversary!!!

Hey there Peaches!

If you have been reading this blog for a while you know that I struggled with anorexia and then bulimia for 17 years. I am so bad about blogging about it even though I really want to! I am going to though, I promise. I always knew that one day when I was past it I would tell my story so that someone else may not struggle as long. But for me, it’s so much easier to write about my current state instead of my past because my current state is fresh in my mind. And it’s crazy that even though it was a 17 year struggle, it isn’t fresh in my mind! In fact, it doesn’t even feel like it was me at all.

Anyway, I always wanted an anniversary date. I would get so fed up some days and tell myself that I was done. I had finally had enough and tomorrow was going to be my fresh new healthy start, and I would turn from my disordered ways and never look back. I was going to remember that day that I never looked back and celebrate it every year. There were so many of those “new beginnings”. Then some days I felt like I would never have an anniversary because I would never be able to let go.

Well here I am, healed.

I have no idea what day this happened because it didn’t happen how I wanted it to. It wasn’t that I woke up one day, started fresh and clean and never looked back. It was failure after failure and failure after failure (this could go on…), lesson after lesson after lesson, YEARS of praying, and never giving up hope that one day I could not center my world around food and my body. I really don’t know when it ended for good. I just know that it was really bad for 17 years. But it did, in fact, end for good. If you are reading this right now and going through the struggle, know that it is very possible to be 100% better no matter how long it’s been..

I have no clue what my anniversary day is…….. but I still want one!

So I am going to open my calendar and whatever month I open to, I will close my eyes and point to a day. I’m going to do this right now……

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MAY 15!!!

My eating disorder recovery anniversary is May 15, still don’t know the year. But I’m gonna celebrate! 🙂

Question:

Do you have a unique important date that you celebrate each year?

Maybe It Will, Maybe It Won’t

Maybe It Will, Maybe It Won’t

Happy Monday Peaches!

So often we let our fears hold us back when it comes to our health even though staying right where we are is actually worse than what we are afraid of.

Finding yourself paralyzed by fear? Here are a few of the common fears that get in the way of our goals. And here is a little game I made up called Maybe It Will, Maybe It Won’t to point out the possible results of our choices.

Maybe you will find this post helpful…. but then maybe you won’t. Haha!

 

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FEAR: I Won’t Be Able To Stick To A Healthy Eating Meal Plan
Maybe It Will….. make you miserable because you miss your old way of eating. Maybe you will hate it so much you will give in and feel like a failure and end up feeling worse than you already do.
Maybe It Won’t….. be so bad. Maybe you will enjoy the way you feel from living a healthy lifestyle so much that you won’t even want to eat the way you used to anymore. Maybe you will actually like healthy food. Maybe it will start with eating less sugar and you will end up just like one of those beautiful, fit people you see on Health Magazine while waiting in line at the grocery store.
Certainly: If you don’t try a healthy eating meal plan, you will never know if you like it or not, if you can stick to it or not, and you will certainly stay the way you are.

FEAR: I Have Already Failed MANY Times At Trying To Eat A Healthy Diet, I Will Just Fail Again.
Maybe It Will…..
make things worse to try again. Maybe you will not be able to do it, again, and only feel worse about yourself.
Maybe It Won’t….. be the same outcome this time. Maybe, if you come at it with a clean slate, a brand new mindset, you can forget every single thing that you have ever done wrong in the past and start again. Maybe this can be the start of something fantastic.
Certainly: If you believe you can’t, you are right.

FEAR: I Will Not Be Able To Keep Up With A Exercise Program
Maybe It Will…..
be to hard. Maybe it will hurt. Maybe you won’t be able to keep up with everyone else in the class. Maybe you will feel ashamed. Maybe you will feel discouraged. Maybe you will feel uncomfortable. Maybe you will just give up because you feel ashamed and discouraged and uncomfortable.
Maybe It Won’t….. be so bad that it’s hard. Maybe it won’t be so bad that it hurts. Maybe when you can’t keep up with everyone else, it will fuel a fire that you didn’t know was inside you. Maybe you will feel proud. Maybe you will feel encouraged because your body did something you didn’t think it could…..what else can it do? Maybe it will feel good to feel uncomfortable for a bit…… maybe you will feel alive!
Certainly: If you don’t give it a shot, you will stay just as you are right now.

FEAR: People Will Think I Am Stupid
Maybe It Will…..
be that you are laughed at. People will wonder why you are even trying. People will laugh behind your back because you are overweight and trying to get in shape. Maybe they will think you are stupid for daring to step into a gym looking the way you do. Maybe they will even say something to you. Maybe your feelings will be hurt.
Maybe It Won’t….. be any of your business what they say behind your back. Maybe you will not care what they think because you are too focused. Maybe you will do what is good for you despite what people think or say. Maybe you will put one foot in front of the other and keep your eye on your goal. Maybe you will gain respect for yourself. Maybe you will find out that’s all the respect you needed in the first place.
Certainly: You are the result of your thoughts.

Just some thoughts.

Maybe today will be like yesterday……. but maybe it won’t!

 

The 12 Days of Fitness!

The 12 Days of Fitness!

Hello Friends!

It’s fall!!! And I am hugging myself every morning. I have a new baby, I have my energy back as well as the ability to bend over, Once Upon a Time and Dancing With the Stars are back on TV, and everywhere I look there is pumpkin spice everything. I am actually not a fan of pumpkin spice BUT when I see it I know that the air will soon be crisp and my favorite time of year is here!

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So to celebrate, I am doing 12 Days of Fitness here on TKP. Kind of like the 12 Days of Christmas but for fitness, get it? 🙂 It will be 12 steps toward feeling good this fall.

Starting Saturday October 1st, I will be sharing one easy step toward fitness each day. This will be fun. The first step is to simply daydream of a new and improved you!

I hope you follow along and maybe even take the steps. It’s only 12 days! Who doesn’t want to feel good in such a good season?

Tis the fitness season yall!